Wednesday, February 14, 2007
12:14
last wed.. i went out with shuang and lin jin again!
haas...
we stayed at the swings till four..
then we had eggs and bread at the coffee shop..
haas..
i really had fun that night..
or morning.. whdevr...
we talked for hours until the rubber seat of the swing was starting to hurt my ass..
and in the midst of all that, we came to a most daunting subject..
results..
in a blink of an eye it was like friday and i got to see my frens again!!
haas..
people like shoes and weijun and luo er and lun tat and evryone!
haas..
felt as though nthn changed..
it was like a regular school day.. crazy pictures with phyllis and group..
then basketball later with dion and gang..
haas...
lets cut to the chase..
ENGLISH B3COMBINED HUMANS B3MATHS B3ADD MATHS B4SCIENCE A1ART A2CHINESE D7!!BENJI GOT 12 FOR R4 AND 16 FOR R5!Haas... this wld be correct... yes sir..
yupps..
under normal circumstances, i wld be like wayy ecstatic..
kus i worked freaking hard for that a2 for art and that b4 for add maths...
budd i felt
nothing..i saw so many other people like in tears of joy and like others stoning..
sure i made lotsa noise budd like i didnt share their emotions..
it was like ordering a meal at macs.. then the cashier person giving you ure meal..
then you walk away..
nothing more..i was waiting for a
KKKAAAABBOOOOOOOOOMMMMM!!budd nthn of that sort came my way..
i saw ms chew..
and she saw my math results..
she was like wahhh... benjamin, im soo proud of you..
haas.. i was secretly pleased.. haas..
shoes said the same abt my results..
and so did some of my frens and cousins..
haas.. wasnt expecting it budd it did come as a warm surprise..
=]
oh well..
with affliation and cca points thingy.. im like eligible for cjc..
my parents think it wld be like good if i go to a jc..
budd you know me,
I AINT THE STUDY TYPE SEE..haas...
wld probably crumble in the school with the highest reported abortion rate..
luo er wld beg to differ..
just like in the canteen..
leon: cj got highest abortion rate..
luoer: nooooo.. its not us... its some other school..
leon: really meh? i thought its cj?
luoer: nooooooo.. its really not us!
benji: this is like asking the hawker centre uncle if his stall has roaches..
benji mimics uncle: dont have, my stall dont have.. is frm the stall down the line.. not mine..
haas..
we all had a pretty good laugh which is was much needed..
anws... now i had to choose between mass comm , visual comm and cjc..
i hate deciding things..
especially when its reaaally impt and there's a lack of a "reset" button..
yeahh, so was kinduff bummed out this past few days.. abt my decision..
wantd to talk to you but you werent there...i talked to my godma..
she's in moe so she has seen lotsa students and statistics...
so duh,
SHE KNOWS!!she said like its better to choose poly now kus now im sorta guarenteed the course i want and then move on to uni..
kus to go to jc is to risk doing badly and ending up in some shitty course in the university..
like degree in alternative broom handling =x
plus once you get a full cert, you cant retake ure A lvls..
its not like o lvls people..
no lifelines..
talkd to loads of people too.. thanks to all of you who helped me see the light...
cheezy..
haas..
so to cut the long story short.. ive kickd cjc away and im of to poly..
haas..
1st visual comm
2nd media and comm
3rd product and indust design
4th mass comm
5th apparel design
6th moving images
7th interior design
haas..
i love design as you can see..
and thats that..
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daphne loves derby-pollen and salt
you left me which such a silent world
the evenings are calm but im restless
and my breath has become as thin as the wind..
not even the mighty sky can fill the space you left behind
not even when it rains
no, nthing takes ure place
an emptiness too great to fill..
i have been holding my breath
for too many nights in a row
and somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
you paint ure dreams with reds and blues and greens
ure painting daffodils by the sea
without me
today in a breeze i sensed ure perfume
but you were no where near
in reverie
i felt you holding me
and even in my dreams i shake frm the fear
that you'll be swept away
by the rythme of the waves they whisper in ure ears
i have been holding my breath
for too many nights in a row
and somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
you paint ure dreams with reds and blues and greens
and ure painting daffodils by the sea
without me
i would give away my sweetest melodies
if i cld just be with you again
be with you again
last night i dreamt you were with me
finally i cld breathe..i rmb you gave me these words
now i wanna give em back
kus i dunnoe howda speak to you anymore..
benjaMEAN
BUMMEDOUT=/
