Thursday, June 21, 2007
21:46
ahhh.. for those of you who dont alr know..
sing banjamin ezekiel is one helluva emotional sponge..
there's a clear difference between emo and emotional okayy..
im not emo!
well, i mean im only human ehh?
cut me, i'll bleeeeeeedd..and lately alot has been happening..
this is where i'd like to pour all my thoughts and feelings..
right here------------>X
if you dont wanna read abt some sad person then this is were you shld decide to shift ure mouse in the direction of that red box thingyy.. you know the one with the prominent "X" in it? yeahh, go figure genius..
is it possible to feel positively fuzzy warm and stone cold inside at the exact same time?
im starting to think its largely plausible..
have you evr felt that way?
shown the darkside of man and loved to the brim at the same time?
it makes my fingers shake a little..
and no, im not refering to a viewpoint of a relationship here..
its something more vague and awesome..
something that we are part of and yet at the same time, larger than individual..
hmm.. im not making much sense..
not even to myself..
haas..
if you cld get into the inner workings of my brain i sure it'll turn ures to mush..and i dont blame you, kus i confuse myself sometimes too..
maebe i have some unknown brain disorder..
hmm
i stepped out of the train the other night on the way home and attempted to soak in my surrounding.. had my earphones lodged deep but i cld still pick up the distinct tapping sound which resonated from the smooth tiles my shoes came in contact with..
tit tap tit tap..
this is me.. my person.. my being.. my own story.. and i was making sounds with my shoes.. haas.. queer thing to be thinkign abt but yes..
i was briefly amazed but in that very bubble, i was intruded by other tit tappers, for lack of a better noun.. i looked arnd and evryone else was too making their own way through the machinical doors..
their own person.. their own shoes..
then i wondered, was i the only person who has evr had this thought cross his mind..
i guess i'll nvr know..
and with that i figured thats not the only thing i wldnt know abt these people..
i will nvr know their stories.. at least nvr absolutely, for sure..
i mean, can you reaally share evry thought and feeling with another?
thoroughly impossible wldnt you say?
thats just how big the world is..
so the next time you think abt ureself, think abt that old man sitting across you in the train..
yeahh, that simple guy with all his wrinkles.. in his shorts..
whads his life like? whads his story?
or maebe that hot chick whose glances youve been dodging wld seem to be more inviting to portray..
in this context of course..
haas..
all this in my brain in less than two mins..
you can only imagine the amount of stuff that goes through between my ears..
of course i wont type it all out..
i value my fingertips you know?
hee=]
well, if youve bothered to read the whole thing, perhaps you might wanna put some ice on ure brain..
but you definitly get and "A" from me..
thanks much..=]
poke me, i'll jolt..
benjaMEAN
BUMMEDOUT=/
