Monday, January 14, 2008
00:00
to be read with the most cheerful tone!no, seriously!
dont read into my words because whad you see is whad you get.
i dont know how ive
antagonized you or
infuriated you.
-you cant reply my msgs because i havent sent you any since we broke up.
-talking is not possible online because you got angry and blockd me rmb?
-and reading my blog cannot possibly be the result of some voodoo incantation now can it?with this. i cannot possibly imagine how i accused you of anything?or the least pleaded with you?
whad is there to plead abt anyway?
i told you clearly that even if you wanted to get back with me now i wldnt allow it.
because believe or not, i care enough for you to step back and allow you to achieve ure heart's desires.not the i like you so i care for you?
but the ure another human being and i care for you kinda care.
lest you say im being childish.
must have developed psychic powers in my sleep and creeped into ure mind huh?
no, wait. i apologise.
insults and sarcasm never solved anything.im sorry.
its just that i really need to move on.
and ure childish behavior is not helping.i totally agree like when you said in the future if we give it our all we cld really get something going?
i really do.
frivolous thought for
you.
as much as you think im out to get you.
im really not.
told you i'd leave it.
and yeah. i left it.
not a single tear shed.
i told you i was heartless.or maebe not so
frivolous after all.
i'll only say more mean stuff if i go on.
told you i wldnt say anything like this but hey,
everyone has limits.
and if you think i hate you the slightest bit now then you cldnt be more wrong.and truth is, ive realised, if you call me now and totally blow me away with whad you have in mind, i still wldnt wanna say anything mean.
well, im weak and ure strong.
thats the difference.haas.
dont say ure sorry for being mean because im willing to bet you have never felt it.
how it feels to be at the receiving end?
if you've felt it then ure just plain cruel for doing it to others.so you cant possibly know whad ure apologising for.
this is both
pointless and
going nowhere.and yes, the cheek to laugh.
im
not emo or sensitive.
or on the verge of tears like you said.
im not like the other guys.
i wont rollover.
im just the heartless boy that has nthn better to do other than find ways and means to hurt you and bring you down.exactly like you figured.
haas.
ure right.
we have so many issues.
but if you
dig deep.and be totally honest with ureself.you'll know im right abt you.
this will only serve to worsen the situation.
and its exactly whad i said i wldnt do.
im annoying like that.
please forgive me.
this has taken up all my space and mood to post the day's worth.
so giehnqydbshhdkfr.
meant all that i said and more that ive yet to, including that i hope ure doing fine.
and!
-unsung songs at prom
-sleepybusrides
-greenteaicecream
-cherrylollys
-crappymovies
-embarrassing fastfood eat outs
-hugs and kisses
-hugged for puking
-3hrwaiting
-lego
-promises
still mean alot to me.
even now.
just thought you shld know.
well, love.
benjaMEAN
PEACEOUT=]
